The Weight

Do not cry
be angry
or lament
what you are

No one has made
the choices of our
actions but us
alone

We alone
bear their weight
in body and spirit

If you are unhappy
with your current
state of being
then make the slow
and steady choices
to change
and be more
than the limitations
we place on
ourselves

Of Body

Don't be afraid
Of truth
Of words
Of describing
Grimy reality
The body
Our functions
Not for shock
Truth and only that
To illuminate
The edges
Of what is known
To illuminate
The beating
Of the heart

Vessel

I am the vessel for the infinite divine
I exist in this moment
I feel the needs of the body
I feel the lusts
I feel the anxieties
I feel the insecurities
I feel the bodily pleasures
I feel the loneliness of a cold bed
I feel my finite humanity
I am all too human
I feel more within
I am more than this
I know this
I see myself in you
I see all of us in your eyes

Oh, Honey

I know the struggle
for peace of mind
Yet it doesn't get easier
How do we live
with ourselves
I ask myself
all the time
We do
for the most part
Peace and joy
and happiness
still live
still exist
even when we
have to dig deeper
to find them in
this life
How much pain
will you suffer
How many tears
will you shed
I cannot say
It hasn't been enough
There will be more
Always more
This life will never lack
for these
I will be there
suffering with you
We all must suffer
We must take our pain
and create a way
towards the light
This is the task
we must see through
but we are never alone

Awake

Awake
and yet

How to change

Easy-
it will be difficult
and gradual

Possible
always possible

Remember your lips
Pressed against me so tightly
Tasting your sweetness

The Great Restlessness

Restlessness moves through me
  Impels me to stand
                   to walk
Restlessness reminds me
          of irreversible time
                    A river moving
                    forward unable
                    to be still
Able to take us
                    to sights
                    unseen

As human beings one of our great

abilities is to change ourselves

and our world. This can be only

accomplished through measured

steps and a steady commitment 

of willpower. 

I am not searching 
For cheap relief
Give me the real thing

Unseen Moments

I am not the man you think I am
But I am a man nonetheless
These days leave me shuddering
And senseless in the bathroom 
With the doors closed
I can't breath 
But I force a breath in 
Splash water on my face
And walk out 
To try again 
To keep going 
To try and not break down

Salvation

Your warm body pressed against mine
Beneathe sheets
Hidden from everything else
In the world
A world apart from everyone
A place where 
Salvation is possible

Skin

My skin can barely keep back
                    all these broken pieces
                                        jostling around
                                                           inside me.

Acts of Emptines

It was cold in bed
Before you came
And afterwards
I couldn't sleep
You left and
I asked myself
Why I felt such
An emptiness
I know why now
Years have gone
And I remember
This lesson on
Love and acts
of emptiness

Unconscious Functions

Breathing because I must
Doing so unconsciously
My body keeps me alive
Heart couldn't think
Even if it wanted to
Brain couldn't beat like
My heart even if it tried
I see because I can
Because I open my eyes
Caught in this place
Victim only cause I let it be
This place
A place of unseen violence
Place of closed doors
And muffled sounds
Hushed words and
Cast off promises to be faithful
With no judgement
I watch and see
With judgement I turn and
Look away

Gauzy haze of thought

Passing sounds of passion

Flirting with the ethereal eternal

We submit to corporeal limitations

Broken hearted but 
your tongue is still working

My hands do not know
The master for whom they speak
Many living eyes

At Any Cost

Sell me back what is mine at twice the price

Paying anything to have it back

To go to the place where I once belonged

This stream is no lake

Blood rushing through my arteries

reading

Eyes are honest

to a fault.

Body Images

I.
Spare Parts For Broken Hearts


II.
Tears Of The Body