Caught Thinking

You get caught thinking about
your weight
money
how much of it you have
how much of it you need
You get caught thinking about
time
and how it is passing
and how it worries you
and how helpless you are
to impede it
You don't want to think about it all
so you drink
so you keep busy
trying to stave off the inevitable
so you keep working
and try to not look up
You get caught up
wanting to be happy and
worrying about it
yet never feeling closer
to the feeling you've been longing for
You get caught up thinking about love
and how much you have to give and
how much more you wish you had
yet that isn't the whole story and
even you know that but that
doesn't keep you from
worrying so you
worry anyway
and isn't
that
fruitless?
In the middle of the night
you wake up in worry
and for once
you learn
to stop
and
go back
to sleep