Driving to the end of the map.

Guilty Mirrors Break

We make terrible choices all the time.

Relationships are made to stave off

the sense of loneliness and inadequacy

that has been fostered by a lifetime

of neglect and dashed expectations.

The belief that material possessions

can bring one closer to completion

is thoroughly believed and falls short

of what true contentment can be.

There is so much pain in so many eyes

on any given day in any place you look

that one wonders what it is that compels

us to push forward day by day to some

mystical end game we will never understand.

We seek happiness without ever wondering 

what it means and what it is.

It is a question worth asking 

even though the answer is only one

that we know once we have experienced it.

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Most people want the very thing

that they cannot have.

The mind convinces itself

of the utter perfection of life

if this one thing,

one person 

could be obtained.

We are foolish in such ways.

Look at any friend or acquaintance

in your life and you will see the truth 

to this.

If you wish.

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Isolation

Sometimes it feels like I'm speaking

in a dark room to no one at all.

The realization hits

that it is the truth

and my fingers flutter

over keys in silence.

Vulnerable

You have been my biggest disappointment

and my only regret.

Love is all I have ever wanted and

it evades me at every turn.

Nothing can fill this aching part of myself.

The mindless pleasures of the flesh 

have been nothing more than glimpses at 

deeper joys denied to one as myself.

Other pursuits bring joy and connection

but not at the level I seek.

I cannot hold these things close to me on 

dark nights of doubt and introspection.

So I sit in silence

hoping someone is listening

and could be missing me,

maybe even needing me.

I have grown fearful 

of reaching out to those 

that I may grow to love

or could love me

from a history of rejection

and shattered expectation.

How much more can I take

until I decide this is

ENOUGH

and leave these thoughts

to the dustbins of the past?