Destroy Me, I Dare You.

"Life Is Suicide." - Me.



"Reality is grossly overrated." - Joe Nolte



not so random speculation
This is what i want.
you know this
and i know this.
perhaps that is why
this is so hard
and terrifying.
the fact there could be
a threat to it
from within
is nerve wracking to
no end.
personal choices are
just that.
in some cases
they end up
having repercussions
far greater
than any individual
could have known.
i am speculating
but it seems like
these speculations
are valid.
i would rather do this
than anything else.
don't do this to me.


give lust a chance
all i could think of
was you last night.
from the moment
i saw you walk by
me i couldn't help
but want to possess
you in every way
all last night
and this morning.
i'm sure i will see
you again tonight.
but perhaps the moment
has passed
and someone else
will be there
in your place
or perhaps not.

"he blew his mind out in a car, he didn't notice that the lights had changed."
- The Beatles, A Day In The Life from Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band


perhaps life is getting ready for lift off
after all of these years.


now
the time to jump
over the edge into no mans land
has come.
there is no bottom
there is no net
there is nothing
but falling
and making the best of it.




"i don't wanna hear it" - Minor Threat



cold feet on a cold morning is no way to start the day.

an inanimate thank you
couch you've been good to me
on all those nights
when i would fall asleep
dead drunk on you
as my entire body
was filtering out
the poison i had so willingly
put into it in such quantity.
now i fall asleep on you
dead tired when it's late as hell
and driving would be suicide.
thanks couch.



when everything wrong is right
all our love is empty.
all our fears fully grounded.
everything beautiful turns
ugly and dead.
the strongest
are the weakest
after all.
all suspect motives
fully warranted.
all your words
nothing but passing wind.
all you gazes empty.
all truth
rendered impotent.
all monkeys
have gone
to heaven.


dead and relative.


THROUGH
if you push me
you will see
i will not surrender
to you
and your future mistakes.
never forget
that i love you.
but if you force it upon me
i will have no choice
but to say and act out
this statement:

"The Only Way Out Is Through."