You Can't Keep Living Like This

you can't keep living like this.
this isn't so bad
but it's not that good
either.
the security
is nice as you
can imagine
but it does wonders
for killing a potential
late night encounter
when that's all
you have on your mind
at that time.
living like a grown child
is not the way you should
be. you know better
than this.
be the man
you keep saying
you know you are.
until then
you won't know for sure.



each end
we occupy
opposite ends
of the same spectrum.
on my end
i wish i could have
the security
and comfort
of a home and spouse
to call my own.
of a job with
health benefits
and a steady income.
it sounds like some
kind of
nightmarish dream
come true for
so many of you.
my life is set
in shifting tides of sand
and i wander where i may
and let life unfold
into the kaleidoscope
which we all know it to be.
i am poor
i live like a dog
i worry about money
i worry that i may never find that great love
(or perhaps i already let it slip by)
i worry that the art i make will fall
on deaf ears
i worry that all my effort is for naught
i worry that maybe i have thrown my life away
i worry that i have accomplished nothing
i worry that maybe i will die alone.
so perhaps your end of the spectrum
is not so bad in light of all these things,
but if i carry on with all of it
to its' conclusion
then maybe
just maybe
i will outlive you all
in endeavor.


we would be fools if we believed that everything will always turn out alright.



factism
ambition must be tempered
with work and talent
to succeed.
that hasn't stopped
most hacks
from fame
and wealth.
so don't let it
deter you.


factism 2
money
and the pursuit of
material wealth
is what will
destroy the many
because
of the few.