First One Down The New Rabbit Hole

get it in your head
it would have
happened by now
if you had
wanted it to.
that is not conjecture.
that is fact.
standing by
watching the evening
unfold
it becomes all too
apparent
about where
we stand.
no one
is to blame.
there is nothing
to be blamed about
except
the stubborn
heart that has
refused
to be ignored.


HEAVEN IS NO PLACE FOR A DEAD MAN


the Bad Brains said it best, cause i'm moving, i'm moving on. cause i'm sailing, i'm sailing on
and on and on.....


doppelganger
two were where
there was but one before.
one a lost cause
fought for over the years.
the other was a new
proposition
that i wanted to conquer
for one night.
all in all
any of it
would have been a fools
pursuit.
how often
that is the case
i would rather
not know.


new years resolutions
are for people with
out the strength
to make a choice
and stick with it
without need
for symbolic
rebirth
when it is just
one more day
in the life
of our world.


catch a cold in the hottest desert
the world has shown
me many things.
now in my own
personal quest
has revealed even more.
some are truths
that i had not known
until i acted.
others are ones
that are heartbreaking
for no one but me.


Go
Ahead
and
Fail
Now
to
Save
Yourself
the
Time.


the difference between failure and success
is the amount of determination
one puts in their endeavors.
even failure can be defined
as success if growth and change has been achieved.


confucious ain't got shit on me.

this is
like a mental stockpile
being emptied out
as fast as possible
before
it goes away.
better to do it when
it is fresh
than trying to force
words together
that want nothing
to do with you.


if you believe you know the truth
then you are sadly mistaken.
it is never quite as easy
or as obvious as you may think.


i suppose i am merely
lamenting my past and present failures
with someone i should have
forgotten a long time ago.


melted wax
for a few moments
in an all too fleeting night
all eyes and ears were there
focused on those sounds.
driving them with my actions
and having to say nothing.
now it is morning
and it is cold
and as removed from those moments
as reason is from our age.


Every Party You Have Ever Been To.
every body
plays a part
in a tapestry of
conscious desire
and biological imperative.
our problems and misunderstandings
as human beings
all stem from
our mental self awareness
and the base needs of biology.
the two can never
seem to be reconciled.



i walk on broken glass and i walk on dying kings.


to any new comers:
you don't know
what kind of heart ache
you are getting
yourself into.


self aware
why bother with the past?
because its tendrils have not loosened
their grip on my heart and mind.
but i must be a good gardener
and cut them away
in order
to continue to grow.


Song Bird
sorry i missed your call.
i would rather have spent the rest
of the night somewhere else
alone with you
than any one else
that i was with last night.
only because
you have been a breath of
fresh air to me
in a time when
perhaps
i need it the most.