embrace of the abyss

do you want it or need it?
this game
that we have been playing
has been going on
for quite some time.
it always goes
back and forth
in a teasing manner
that seems to
get us both
going somewhere
but then nowhere.
perhaps in another
night or so
things might change
for the better.
or so i hope.


real history is not in the text books
history
writes itself
every day whether
or not we
are paying attention
to the world around us.
we are mostly
unaware
of the events in our
world of
true importance.
the details
and significance
of these is not
always apparent
at the moment.
only with an impartial
eye looking backwards
can we grasp
history.

between santa barbara and the south bay
we have gotten older my friend
and each of us
occupies a space
that perhaps
could have been reversed
in the past.
now we fill
opposite
parts of ourselves
and meet up
to talk these things over.
over dinner
and some tea
we grow deeper
in our understanding
of each other
and where we
are going no
matter
how different
our similar minds
make themselves
out to be.